RIO FERDINAND has revealed he constantly tortures himself thinking about football moments that cost him trophies – and even still spoils his holidays doing it.
The 42-year-old – who won 14 trophies during his time at Manchester United – has stated rather than recalling his successes with pride, he feels dissatisfied with his career.
And he can’t stop beating himself up over the big achievements that got away – even while sitting on an idyllic beach.
He said: “If you ask me what I think about more, I’ve spent more time in retirement thinking about what we lost and didn’t win than what we won, which is so weird, but I can’t help it.
“You can be sitting having the best day on a beach somewhere in an idyllic place and all of a sudden something shoots into your mind, like the FA Cup final, [Didier] Drogba.”
Didier Drogba scored the cup final extra-time winner for Chelsea against the Red Devils in 2007 – although there was no direct Ferdinand mistake to blame.
Rio added: “It’s just mad. It just ruins your next fifteen minutes and you’re just sitting there and you need to snap yourself out of it.
“I just think that competitive energy is always bubbling under somewhere. It’s difficult.
“As much as I did win and was successful in my career, even for instance with England it was disappointing in the end.
“Everyone called us the golden generation of players with [David Beckham], Michael Owen and [Paul] Scholes.
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“But we didn’t win, so it leaves you that little bit of taste of dissatisfaction.”
Rio believes he would escape having the what-might-have-been regrets gnawing away at his mind if he was one of four great players.
He said: “Cristiano Ronaldo and Leo Messi, Pele, [Diego] Maradona they are the only ones. They’ve had flawless careers.”